~*:.My feelingS in wordS.:*~

A mum. Being a mum is not easy. A mother is the one who brought you to this world. Who teaches you to be good. Feed you. Brought you up. Teach you how to talk. How to walk. The responsibilities on a mother is BIG. We should be considerate..understanding. How hard it is to be a mother. I always wanted to be a mother. I don’t know why. haha..I don’t used to have an ambition, but I always say my ambition is to be a mother. A loving and caring mother that can give all her love to the family. I don’t know about that but that’s wat I’ve always wanted to do. =) You know? Even tho sometimes our parents seems to nag a lot…talk a lot or scold a lot..but then they always love us in their heart. Never fails to love us and care for us. They nag, also because they love us. They scold, coz they want us to be good. They don’t want us to drift to the wrong path. Every mother, every parent in the world would like their child to be the best and have the best in life. Have you ever done these of the below before…
1) talk to your parents in a loud tone.
2) say that ‘ It’s NOT FAIR! how come people has it and I don’t?!’
3) Always grumble about your parents. ( in your heart..) ‘How come people’s parents are so cool and mine aren’t ?!’
4) Always quarrel with your parents because of small matter.

And situations like that. Well…I dint say that I don’t. I DO have such thinkings at times. But before the thinking POPS into your mind, always ask yourself….who is the one who always care for you when you’re sick? How much they (your parents)had gone thru just to bring you for what you are today? How much they had given you and how much YOU have given them? Your father, work hard just to earn a living for the family so that the family can lead a better life. Your mum, always takecare of you no matter what happens. Always shower you with love. Even tho they don’t have time, they will also make sure that you are well taken care of. Send you to montessori or employ a babysitter just for you. You know? People always think about the negative side of somebody before they think about the positive. People always think about others wrong doing before they think about their goodness. Let’s change this! Think about how much your parents had done for you before you think about the negative side of things. Even tho they didn’t give you what you need or what you should have in life. You should be understanding. Understand why is your parents not giving you those things. We, as children must be understanding and forgiving. Forgive them even tho sometimes they fail to give you what you need. Nobody is perfect you know. People do make mistakes and might be forgetful at times too. You know? it’s not easy to be a parent today. Think about it. If your parents don’t love you, they wouldn’t spend so much time on you. They spend so much time on you juz to teach you, tell you what is right and wat is wrong. It is all for your own good and it all comes from LOVE. So, be fortunate and grateful for what you have today. It’s not a coincidence that you all can be a family, it’s a blessing. A blessing to all of you. So..takecare of your parents, now, and even when their old. Thank them for what they’d done. Grab the chance. Don’t always grumble. Love them with all your heart. Do things with your heart. Show them that you actually care. Talk more and communicate more with them. Age gap is actually NOT a factor( well..sometimes maybe) when you understand their minds. It takes time tho. Anyway..this is what I’d learn today. Just wanted to share my feelings. Hope it can impact your life. Change your opinion towards your parents.

Takecare everyone. Godbless~ 

Another boring day today. Well umm…basically..the whole holiday was quite bored except for my first week of holiday. haha….first week of my holiday was AWESOME but then later on..siighh..it’s quite bored. My usual routine, brush teeth..wash face..eat..go online..play some solitaire..chit-chat on phone..watch tv..listen to music…go out sometimes…sleep…bathe..laugh…sing…walk…err…well..that’s about it i guess. LOL tedious ey? I thought so. Well..nothing happening happens today, just feel like writing something here. I just finish chit-chatting on the phone today. I’d talk about 1 whole hour on the phone today. wahhahahha…i seldom talk so long on fone..so..it’s nice. XD well..I think I better take some time to study and to do my homework. sighh..havent been touching it since school holidays. Ouweelll….typical lazy me. haha…gotta go then. Have fun people during the holidays! Have loads of fun while you can. =) It’ll be a hard year for me next year. =( ouhwell….that’s life. au revoir people!

Sighhh….I am really quite dissapointed in u guys. Well…not all of u guys. It all make sense now. Everything that mr.J (my drama class teacher) said it’s making sense now. EVERY single WORD he say is making sense. siighhh….u cannot actually call everyone ur fren. The people u meet in tuition? is just your tuition mate. not yet ur fren. The people you stay with and study with in class? is ur classmates. Well..you might have friends! but not all ur classmates ARE ur frens. Friends are the people with you when you’re in troubled times and the ones that you look for to pour out your deepest thoughts and secrets. Friends are not the ones who stab you by the back or the ones that is trying to hurt you. Well….I know. Sometimes you don’t mean to hurt your friends, or maybe sometimes you hurt your frens without knowing it. Well..I dunt know what to say, but sumtimes you might be joking..or you might be fooling around. You know? even tho you’re fooling around..you should think about the things you should say and NOT say. Sometimes it can really hurt someone’s feelings you see.

I felt so dissapointed and sad even tho I know you guys are joking or whatever. SOmethings are not meant to joke about you see? I don’t know. I just felt a knife being cut into my heart and my heart sank as I heard what I heard my friends said about. Well…feeling much better now. Just that I’ve trusted all my friends..but…sighh…I dunno what to say anymore. You might not think I’m a good friend or anything..that’s alrite. Well..I’m done. Just expressing my feelings here and feeling all better now. =)

Shopping  spree baybehh!
hahahaa….nahh…not really a shopping spree la. It’s just that I went
shopping 3 DAYS STRAIGHT! phhheeww….XD It’s was swOooo funnn!! But have to be
honest..it’s not fun to go shopping when u dun have d money. siiighhh….you
can see but you can’t buy. The feelings are juz so not good! X(
ouwell..wutudo..have to bear with it lah. Life’s like that. Money is not that
easy to earn ya know? *grin*

Anyway….basically..I went to oneU (in short: ou) on saturday with my bro
and my beloved cuzzin lynny (just came bac from aussieland) and cuzzin
xinny!wahhahahaha….at first we wanted to watch Death Note, but then! the
queue in the cinema was like soOoo lonng! As long as err….a python!
hahaha…=P Well i dunno..but it’s just so long that we can’t stand waiting and
waste our time, so we decided not to watch. (people with no patience ey?
heehee…) And so…after lunch and Sushi King,there’s nothing much for us to
do but shopping! heehhee…and so..me, lyn and xin went into shops like ZARA,
Esprit,Topshop and so on to check out all the cool clothes and dresses. We
wanted to try it on but we were lazy. =P hahaha…it was all so niceee however
we were all so broke that we can’t buy anything. (that is SO mensaddeningkan.
><) siigh…well..after some walking..we were tired and so we went to McD
for ice-cream and sit down to chit-chat then we head home after that. Well..I
have to say..it’s a pretty good day. =)

SUNDAY! before going to church at 5 p.m., amazingly! my bro ask me to go The
Curve with him. hahaaha…how surprising. XD Well..he wanted to get some souvenirs for his colleagues from thailand. (i think…aww how sweet..haha!) He wanted to get a little twin tower for them since they dun have the chance to go themselves. However we can’t find any in The Curve den we end up walking around after havin lunch at the amazing Winter Warmer shop! The environment..the food..it’s a-ma-zing! XD Anyway…after church service, we went to Sunway Pyramid for dinner AND! sum shopping. lol. since he havent found his twin tower mar. XD Anyway…after he bought his twin towers, we went to Nol Buh? or sth liddat. >< a korean restaurant for dindin. WOW! the food is HOTT! haha..but nice anyway. kay..this day has ended.

A new day has come. MONDAY! Hoooraayy! Going mid valley(mv) with my bunch of crazeee frens. XD after tuition. Me, meithin, xuan and huiqin went to the ktm station at about 10.45 to meet up Jon and Jie Min who r at the ktm station. Then we hop on the train and mid valley here we come!! heehee..well..we did nothing much there..we just shop after we had our lunch. Since we don’t want to watch Happy Feet, me, mt, jon n jiemin went to do some shopping!! while xuan and huiqin go watch the movie. hahaha….we go in all the shops and see all the nice nice stuff. but then..canot afford. =.= siigh..ouwell..life’s like dat. Surprisingly, my cuzzin xin was there too at mv! haha..so i decided to follow her bac with her frens. AND unfortunately her fren is in a rush so i’ll have to go The Curve with her again…to wait for my bro to come fetch us home. >< siighh…and so we end up in BORDERS reading manga (means comic in jap. XD)

And let’s skip tuesday which I went to Vivian’s house to teach her some maths and go tuition later that. haha..nothing much to say about dat anyway. ><

Let’s move on! WEDNESDAY is HERE baybehh!! Today, I went out with Alex (my bro), Lyn, Xin, Chuen, Yon and Jie, My fellow j.e.m.m.e.d mates! xcept chuen. >< anyway! we had loads of fun today! mwahahhahaa….we went to watch ACCEPTED which is quite a meaningful + funny + nice show. not bad….i rate it 6 out of 10. heehee…anyhoo..after the movie, lunch at Nando’s and we took a couple of furnny pics. LOL then! wow..this is the fun part of going shhopping with my whacky cuzzins. XD We went in to ZARA, Somerset Bay and loads more shops…and then! we saw lotsa nice stuff..so we decided to try it on! haha..wat a waste if u never try yar? heehee..kk…then all 3 of us took the same clothes or dresses…to try it on together. We all look SO funny that we laugh so loudly that everyone’s sort of…looking at us. LOL well, then we start to quiet down ady. XD Then later since we are ALL BROKE, we go in to those u know? the DreamWorld shop i think..and take some pics by using their backgrouds ( tsk tsk tsk…wat had we juz did? ><) whOoooHooo..den it’s ICE-CREAM time! hahaha….we all had some ice-cream before we head back home.

WOW…what a week! it’s memang shopping spree ey? well..not quite..window shopping spree it is. hahahaa..it’s fun and nice anyway! make my week so meaningful. LOL. Seems like I dint waste any of my time. haha..tho i AM wasting ALL my time. not quite. X))) hey people!! lurvvyahhall so mucchhiiee!takecare~

peace out~ =)

whOOOooooHooOOOooo…..I’d graduated from high school!!!! =.= as if it’s me who had graduated. siigh…if it’s me i am already skippin around and jumppin around like a psycho. >< haha..or I’ll be crying? wait..i dunt know! haha..ouwell..it’s not me anyway. I still have one dreadful year to go in high skwel and I still need to sit that dreadful spm. GGgggrrrRrr…..noh noh like it! XP

anyway…so..it’s graduation day for the form5ers and Upper sixers. School starts at usual time, 7.20 in the a.m. where everybody gather at the assembly ground. Now, I know you must be wondering what am I doin in skwel when it is not MY graduation day. Well..I am in the choir to perform for all the form5s and 6s. gggrRrr….hahaha…it’s not like I dun like it, I am juz lazy to wake up so early. >< I am a bit grumpy in the morning. hahahaha….anyhoo…the stoopit thing about today is that we all need to reach there at 7 for practice but our performance is at 10 a.m. whOlly! we reach there 3 whole hours earlier! X) lol. however it was quite fun where we were all chit-chattin away among ourselves. hahah….finally! it’s 10! it’s time to perform after the arts stream students took their certs. We performed after our skwel’s puisi and lagu team. I have to say…their GOOD! well done guys. We sang ‘ Joget Si Pinang Muda’ (where we have to dance..>< but it was fun. XD), ‘ Memory’ and ‘Think Of Me’. well…everything goes QUITE smoothly. lolz. not bad larh..hahaa….Then the giving-out-certificates ceremony continues.

At about almost the end of the ceremony, we were invited again to sing. haha..actually not many people are listening ady. >< We need to sing our school song ( wow! amazing man! all the form5s and 6s sing SO LOUD! whOOhOOoo…XD) and auld lang syne. This is the funny part. You know people throw their graduation hat up after they graduated, yea? but since the students dun have hat..hahaha…they all threw their program list of the day and their ties! lol. the program lists were everywhere. >< whHhheee…here comes photo taking session! wHooahOoaah…haha…me and my fren were looking for our seniors and take pics with them as a memory. how nice…*grin* We took loads of photos and will post in friendster soon, IF i have it. XD

Well…that’s about it for the day.

The title said it all! David Tao rock my socks! hahaha…nohlah…it rocked my world!!! yea mann!

Basically, it’s not that I fancy him or anything. Just that my bro got 2 tix to the concert so he asked me to teman him. >< For being a nice sis like mwaah! I decided to do him a favor by accompanying him there since I never go to concerts like that before. XP hahaha..well..I have to say..it’s pweetey good.

The concert is at about 8 in the p.m. in Bukit Jalil National Stadium. We took off earlier because we don’t really know the road to Bukit Jalil. heehee…At first everything was doin very well until we missed the junction that leads us to the stadium. >< Ouwell….wutudo..not familiar with the road mar. We then called my bro’s friend who was TRULY A KLians. lol. coz he know almost all the roads we are in and where we are when we told him that we were lost. hahahah…after making a BIG ROUND TURN, finally! we’d reached the stadium. There were already a lot of cars lining up for parking when we reach there. Luckily we found a parking space fast because i need the loo so badly that time for i’ve been in the car for an hour plus. ><

pheeeww….good. Everything goes well at last. I can see throng of people around the stadium eating ice-creams..buying glwoing sticks and so on. Well….how sad. I dint buy any glowing sticks. siighhh…going to concerts without glowing sticks it’s like drinking ice blended without ice. XD heehee…well..i noe that’s lame. Anyway..after we got in the stadium. We thought we were sitting quite front (or mayb VIPs seats! XD) since we got numbers on our ticket. Unfortunately, we are sitting so f-a-r from the stage. X( siigh…but the good thing is we are at least sittin in the middle. haha…wutudo..no money..canot buy VIP tix. uhh rite….the concert. Concerts always start later than the time they’d fixed, so we have to sit there and wait for them to start. I was gettin kinda bored that time and PLUS i was SICK! urghh! darn flu…><

whOoooaahhh….*screaming and shouting all over the place* as we see mr. David Tao comin down from above the stage. Everyone starts screaming ‘ Tao Zhe Wo Ai Ni!’ lol. means David Tao I lurv u. hahhaa…When he starts to sing. wow! I was impressed! I seldom listen to his songs as u can see i’m just teman-ing my bro. but I have to say..he’s GOOD! very VERY the good! hahahah….there were a lot of fire works and new stuff comin out durin d concert. For instance, when he sing the song ‘gui‘ (ghost), he came up from below and there were dancers on the floor trying to pull him down (Brrr…scary! ><) like ghosts. but it was cool. everything is just so nice. There was one part where he is looking for a gurl from the audience to sing with him the song ‘tian tian‘(everyday). You won’t believe this. There was this brave girl..say volunteered to go out. She runs out from her seat and was jumpin up and down in front of David says that she wants to sing v him. So he can do nothing but to just accept her and let her up d stage. wholly! she must be the luckiest girl in the world! haha..well..mayb not the luckiest. X) David HUGGED her and HOLD HANDS with her and LOOK HER EYE-TO-EYE as they were singing the song u know! hahah…she must be sO gholly-freakingly happy and can’t sleep thru the nite. LOL. And I bet she won’t even be bathing for the whole daY! hahaha…anyway..here comes my fav song! whee….’Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo‘ ( Will you marry me today? I fink that’s how u translate it?) He was supposed to sing with Jolin but she wasn’t here so he is singing with a 16 year old MALAYSIAN! which is part of his band for that day. wow! she’s only 16! can u believe this? now that’s so cool!nice….

His last song for the day is ‘Ai  Hen Jian Dan‘ (Love is simple? XD) with all the audience singing with him. That’s very nice and it’s a lovely song. I really admire him after the concert you know. You know what everybody do in concerts rite? hahah…so that wasn’t actually d last song. Everyone was shouting for ENCORE! lol. He won’t dissapoint us and he dint. He came out and really sang the last song for the day that is ‘jiu shi‘ (that is). Well..my first attended concert. Never regret. He’ s real good. And I mean VERY GOOD. His voice..the concert..the songs..him. All and all it’s AWESOME! It ends at about 11.15 p.m. We were kinda hungry, so we went for some supper and went back home after that.

Today was a blast! happy happy jolly jolly…hahahaha….thanks viv!!! today was a won-deer-fwuull day babe! lurrvvyah loadsss!!! mm-muacks! XD

Me and my darling vivi went shopping today. I reach her house at about 9.20 a.m. Then we went there by the shuttle bus service that they provide for us to go oneU (shortform: ou) ,Ikano Power Centre and The Curve. So we took the shuttle bus and here we go to ou! X) Well…we reach there quite early today. Reach there at about 9.45 a.m. which all the shops are not open yet. So we decided to go up the cinema first to buy tix for our movie of the day - John Tucker Must Die. Well…I have to say..this is a good movie. It’s recommended to watch. haha….unfortunately when we reach up there, the cinema was not open either. >< ouwell..we might just have to wait then. After we got our tix, then we go shopping!lolz. First, we go to Esprit to check out the comfy trousers that viv was talking about. Well…I have to admit..it is really comfy. Therefore, you know..I bought it. hahaha….then after that we continue to do some window shopping. Guess what? when we went in to ROXY, we were so lucky! They gave us a box and ask us to draw a card out of the box which was a discount card! whoOOohoooo…and amazingly I got a 20% discount card. XD LOL. Since McDs was just near by, we decided to have our lunch 1st before we continue our shopping mission. X) I had nuggets for lunch while viv was having fish fillet. mm-mMm….it was dee-li-ceeious! *grinz* After lunch, where did we go again? owwhh rite…we went to Forever 21, ZARA to look see look see until the time is up for us to watch movie. Before that we went in to some shop called SJ sumthin sumthing..haha..Ooppss! forgot the name. It is a gift shop which sells gifts and the shop is orange in colour…so..it was all nice. XD When we were looking around in the shop, me and vivi were attracted to a little handphone cover which has black and white piggys on it. I spot it first! but then she says she spotted it first and called me a copycat. =.= ouwell..wutudo…and SO! we both decided to buy it and it’s a me-and-her thing. X) what??! dun get me wrong ouhK? it’s a best friend thang larh. X)) Then it’s TIME for our MOVIE! wahHAhahahaha…John Tucker! =P the show is beary nice. We laugh thru almost the WHOLE show. haha…it was really very very interesting.

After the movie, well..nothing much to do. Time for us to head back home. wuhahahahhah! when we reach home, we were mad! We took loads and loads and loads of photos because we wanted to participate in a competition which need those photos. We were having loads of fun when we were taking the pics. Doin all kind of stooopit faces…funny faces…looking like a maniac or things like dat. hahaha…Then it’s time for me to go home. awww…well! I had a FUN time today. it was all grr-reat! and I am feeling awesome today. Thanks for everything viv! Lurv u loads!

Have fun everyone! enjoy the remaining holidays. takecare~

Nothing is right. Nothing seems to be right today.
So empty..it’s like I have nothing inside my heart. Heart stops pounding. Feeling so lousy, so down. Nothing seems to cheer me up. Even reading a good book doesn’t seem to make me feel better.
I’m lost. Lost in a big world. wandering around helplessly. Hopeless.
What actually am i doing?!
What KIND of feeling IS this??! This is not good.
I’m unsure about everything. I am hopeless.
The void inside me today. What makes it? what makes me feel this way? Can anyone answer ME???!
This is frustrating. I never had this kind of feeling before.
It’s like a piece of puzzle is missing in my life today. Something’s missing.
Love from family?
Friends?

The times I spent with my cuzzins?
Or life just seems to be tedious?
Full of dissapointment.
Today is NOT my day. Everything seems so wrong. SO W-R-O-N-G!
I dunt think I quite understand myself sometimes.
Frustration is conquering me. I can do nothing, but let it go away by itself.
It shall fade away through time. Hopefully.

Well….as u can see, today is just like the other usual days with the usual black and white colours. >< except that I did something that I won’t usually do. hahaha…nothing special lar. Just being hardworking and do my school project. XD Ouwell…better than doing nothing and rust at home rite?

I woke up at 8.25 in the a.m. today and just remember that I dint ask vivian whether I am having lunch with her or not. Then I wanted to call her and ask. To my surprise (not really THAT surprising actually..hahha..), she went cycling and never bring her phone. =.= No wonder I’d called her THOUSANDS of times yet nobody picked up the phone. siiighh…ouwell…then I do the usual brushing and cleaning and then head downstairs for brekkie. I reached her house at about 10 something when she’s actually bathing. ( not quite the right timing. ><) We start to do our project after she finished her shower.

You know, lazy people like US won’t stick on the chairs and tables for long. So….after half doing..half singing..half chit-chatting..half gossiping until 12.30 p.m. , we decided to go down to watch telly since High School Musical -Dance Along version is showing. XP I’m sitting there watching and waiting for my lunch to be served. hahhaha…. Xp I’m not actually that bad lah. I got gave her a hand too! helping her to makan. XD hahah…anyway…we watched ‘High School Musical‘ and ‘The Suite Life of Zack and Cody‘ while we are eating. (since there’s nothing u can do while eating rite? *grin*) After lunch, it’s time…to continue our project. LoL

I went back home at about 5.40 in the p.m. after finishing four pages of the project. haha…(ey! better than nothing rite?! XD) I have another appointment after I go home. wHheeeeEEee! gonna go watch ‘Open Season‘ with cuzzinss! X) now THIS! is a nice part. well..not really that nice lah. heehhee…the movie was short and umm…well…short!and expensive. grrRrr….Since the movie was so short, we dunt even have the chance to get along in the cinema, SO we went to Coffee Bean for a drink, cuzzin Ah Tak’s treat! XD now u’re not gonna get a treat from him very often u know? haha! We were all tired after all the laughing and chit-chatting while drinking. >< Reach home at about 11.00 p.m. today. I can’t say that I had a blast today, however I also can’t say that I’m bored today. SooO…it’s just a normal day!XD just that I got people to teman me today. *beams*

Well..it’s holiday! only for one week actually. >< Normally we will be very happy because we are having holidays. Actually I usually do! but don’t know why I felt different this time. It’s just the starting of the holiday and I am already misssing my friends, missing skwel, miss my teacher. how could this happen??!! can’t believe I am actually saying this.

I have a feeling that I am missing my friends. The time we had in skwel. Where we chit-chat, play, having loads of fun together, laugh together, playing pranks on somebody, talk when the teacher is teaching. XD siighh…just miss it so much. Altho it’s only for one week but how i hope I can go back to skwel. (can’t believe I am saying this again!!) hahha..ouwell…mayb I’m just too bored at home. Maybe going out will be a good solution for not missing them so much. hehehhe…have to bear with it then. Still have projects and homework to do. Grrrrr….>< 

I am missing my cuzzin lyn in aussieland too. >.< miss her sooSoSO much. How I hope I can go to aus too. well..I still have a spm to sit for. siighhh…but look on the bright side! she’s coming back soon! XD Looking forward to it. Though I doubt we will spend a lot of time together. She still has to hang out with the friends rite? ouwell…I believe she’s having a great time there in aus and may Godbless her. takecare lyn. lurrvvvyah loadsss!! X)

I lurv my life, lurv my family, lurv my friends. they are all awesome people that I know. (: I thank God for them.